I LOVE YOU

It Doesn’t Matter Anymore

pinkcolour — Mon, 21 Mar 2011 11:25:54 +0000

seriously, ask yourselves if you really know me at all before telling me whr i am at fault.

how many of you actually bother to know what kind of a person i really am? oh maybe its not you all. maybe it is myself who doesn’t call u up and talk heart to heart whenever i have problems. thats why you dont know how the hell my mindset works? yea i think the problem is with me.

forever fighting so hard to get into the group by calling and smsing each and every one of you asking if you all are meeting up meeting whr, meeting what time. if i dont do so, will i still be in this grp until now? i think i’d be long gone. just because my parents are strict which made me so ‘not on’ for meet ups so u all just go “her parents so strict, always cannot come out, no need call her le ba? her answer would be ‘no’ anw. “

forever fighting so hard to get into the group, knowing i am not good at putting words tgt so i just shut up most of the time and just sit there listening to whatever u all have to say. else i’ll just be careful with my words cus it itsn’t just once or twice that my words hurt ppl.

gradually when i try to speak, none of you listens. and what u all hear are only the words tt i put tgt wrongly. and when i try to explain, u all just cut me off by saying “enough explanation la” even though jokingly, it still hurts knowing none of u wants to listen to my explanation.

because everyone is selfish, everyone only cares about what they themselves feel.

u’re not happy that i accused u of creating that fake profile for fun when u know u’re not such a boh liao person.

and

i am very furious with my picture being used as a profile picture by some fucking perverted stranger who end up claimed that she is trying to make friends with me.

because i was so angry, my tone in the msg didnt turn out well, my words didnt turn out well too. so i can understand why are you so upset. but i have done my best to explain, and all my explanations and apologies are done. if you have nothing to say, i have nothing else to say either. if u wanna tell me ‘nvm, suan liao..’ im sorry, i want my face and pride too. considering the fact that u all one by one go “choke choke choke” it hurts so bad i swear it felt as though im the only person left in this world.

maybe i already am. cus more or less after this post, which express my true feelings, marks the end of our friendship(s). whether or not this post is seen, it will still not change the way i feel.

maybe i dont fit in the group from the start, which is 8 years back.

Holidaysss

pinkcolour — Wed, 17 Mar 2010 16:26:38 +0000

To the beach on the 9th.To think that i applied thick thick sunblock (SPF 50) 2 times, i still got tanned. I got burnt too. A small part. Because i couldn’t reach that small part on my back. HAHA. I’ll get someone to apply for me in the future. I’ve got an hour glass on my back now. But anyways, it was a nice day with my old man, kenny n the rest~

The weather has changed. And so the mosquitoes come hunting for MY blood. How long haven’t i got mosquito bites. I am doing my best to not scratch them; to not bother bout the itchiness. But always failed to do so. I especially hate it when i am woken up by the itch! NabehZZZ i see one kill one from today onwards. My legs so ugly now

Old man and i went to the museum today to see the mummy stuffs. It is free admission for students (with valid student pass). I like one of the rings only. HAHAHA

Old man says i am his fat butterfly with a pair of small small wings that can’t fly.

Oh My Love

pinkcolour — Sun, 28 Feb 2010 17:27:06 +0000

new phone. Samsung B7330. i like it so much. hehe.

okay so i studied for my exams! i hope what i have studied will do me miracle. its not like i didnt study much. but at least the pts i studied came out. i actually managed to memorise them! so happy with myself. pray ahhhh. na mo oh mi tuo fo.

went to work as a flyer girl for samsung road show @ IMM on the weekend that just passed. my old man told me it is a shitty job. but it wasn’t cus 1 of my friend was working there and the other ppl working there were really nice. i like them. haha.

before CNY i went to bought the bubble hair dye. dark chocolate. the colour that came out was quite nice. some of my friends used that hair dye too. but different colour. however, the out come is similar to each other. like there is no difference at all. but i am just glad that my hair is back to 1 colour.

hope that there will be many odd jobs for me at different period during this holiday. cus no one wants to hire a person who is only gonna work for a month

gabrielchanweiquanisastupidbendandumbdumbdabianoldmanwhenhehasgotnomoodtoentertainme. muahahahaha. imissmyoldman.

HELLO　２０１０

pinkcolour — Mon, 25 Jan 2010 13:14:12 +0000

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then i went out with my 2 cousins on 26th for shopping, also on new year day. and then lessons were back to normal. projects start flowing in like huge waterfall. and so i stopped blogging

i am feeling so sick now. fucking noisy. everywhere is so noisy. can i fucking shut some people’s mouth? sickening son of a bitch. you can fucking go and die.

2 weeks of rest!

pinkcolour — Sun, 20 Dec 2009 10:11:16 +0000

common tests are over~ gonna rest for 2 weeks before all the projects starts coming in again.

YEAR END SALES ARE HERE! but i have to save save save! so no buying of things until i save up to the amount i aim for. i don’t really need new clothes or whatsoever currently. they are more like ‘want’ rather than ‘need’ 1 thing bout female is, they will want anything that is nice. but they don’t wanna waste that money. contradicting creatures. haha

yesterday was JUSTINA’s sweet 19th birthday. we baked her huat kueh instead of cake. lmao.

busy period

pinkcolour — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 14:42:32 +0000

i know i haven been updating. i totally forgotten about this blog already. met up with baby to watch 2012 n my girlfriend is an agent. i like the agent movie. i think 2012 is kinda rubbish at the ending.

i don’t think i will be updating that often. because there isn’t much things to update seriously. haha. common test is nearing and so is my PM assignment’s dateline.

in the mean time, i’ll be watching hai pai tian xin! da lang, da lang, da lang da lang da lang da lang da lang~~~

i love you baby <3

BIGFATFAKER

pinkcolour — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 02:06:53 +0000

things i have done recently, went shopping with ah girl to get our lovely cousin’s birthday present, went to find all the aunty and uncles behind jieling’s back to get their messages for her birthday. muaahahaha i know u love it lots. john came up with the idea. but im not gonna ask you to love him more, cus i know you will whether or not i ask you to. so i’ll ask you to love me and ah girl more k.

so there was steamboat with baby and his friends. then jieling’s birthday buffet. then meet up with my 2 dear cousins the following sunday for ah girl’s birthday~ i’ll upload photos another time.

fuck all these childish crap. both of you suck big time. gonna be a faker everywhere i go. _|_

Happily Ever After

pinkcolour — Sat, 17 Oct 2009 14:09:26 +0000

Cinderella; Beauty and The Beast; Snow White; etc

All these stories have happy endings. everyone loves happy endings and every couple wishes their relationships to be like these fairy tales. but always treating them as a goal that is unreachable and end up throwing them aside.

why?

cus everyone only see the happy endings. ever thought about why would there be and what leads to those happy endings? just because they were meant to be together? that’s just half of the reason. i guess nobody will think about the obstacles they’ve been through tgt.

Cinderella – the step sisters and step mother were out to make trouble for her.
Beauty and The Beast – a witch cast a spell on the beast and because he was a beast, everyone didn’t liked him.
Snow White – again, her step mother, the witch, was out to make things difficult for her.

think, if they all just give up because of the obstacles that are created by the bad characters, will there still be happily ever afters?

mummy told me that true love in real life, are just like fairy tales and dramas. so long that the couple’s love is strong enough to overcome the obstacles tgt, that is true love.

i had a good thought about it, and i think its quite true.

“I’ve been thinking alot lately… And i don’t recommend it.”

pinkcolour — Thu, 15 Oct 2009 06:18:08 +0000

oh yes yes yes i’ve bought all the things i want. my shopping list is almost checked.

end of work last sunday, i got my pay on monday, and i went shopping with baby ytd.

and now my pay is totally gone. =X a bit heart pain, but still happy. HEHE. i’ll just start saving up again.

i forgot to mention that i bought my first red dress yo. lol. i think i don’t dislike red that much already. yellow next? lol

smack you

pinkcolour — Fri, 02 Oct 2009 06:28:59 +0000

tuesday was spent with baby. we went to tpy then to orchard then to dhoby. he keeps poke-ing my ulcer; cleaning his perspire and oil on me. worse still, he accidently dropped the wallet i bought for him into the toilet bowl. he needs to be smacked hard on the ass.

wed work thursday slack at home.

i dont like my headache. seriously man. can pain until i wanna vomit. pain until i wanna hit my head hard on the wall. is that migraine or just headache? imagine if i get brain tumor? think i’ll just let myself die. cus i cannot imagine myself without hair. LOL. but it is also because i dont wanna live that long la. gng thru those therapy is a torture too i think. cant stand torturings.